I hate everyone today, and everything.
Work is stressing me and I like it,
but I can’t find patience for people anymore.
My pill is my poison and my salvation
I’m too scared of it, too scared to stop it
there is nobody to feel my pain
nobody I can go to.
The birds will sing me to sleep tonight
as I am wrapped with gray thoughts
that turn black
at the dawn of slumber.
I know I will be losing my senses tonight
I might choke and die,
I can’t exit this black hole,
but I can’t risk staying off of meds.