Channel your inner genius

I managed to turn my bipolar 

into creative energy. 

Tonight I feel productive

accomplished

successful, 

I managed to start drawing again,

thanks to yesterday’s arragements,

my somehow down mood,

and my free time.

I feel like my artistic capacity hasn’t been explored

for a long while now

and it’s about time I wake the beast up. 

With no distractions, 

nothing to care about

no friends to beg for going out

and a boyfriend who doesn’t ignore me

it feels right to start new work. 

I shall do this often

 – at a dream level: everynight –

it’s good for me

it’s good for my ego

now that I know I’m starting off my carreer 

the more I work the better. 

For the first time in many days

my sleep came naturally 

it fell down on me midst working

and suddenly I don’t feel the need 

to take the pill anymore. 

But I’ll take it anyway

cause I’m done for tonight. 
 

Most beautiful day

I woke up too early

Excited,

I got ready, then pretended to sleep

waiting in bed

eagerly

for you to come and kiss me. 

I love cuddling in my bed

I love love

and all the kisses and laughs and touches

we’re crazy

and it’s beautiful

how we both can make each other

so sad or so happy. 

It’s a new experience,

spending our morning in bed.  

We took off to zahle

we had fun on the road

we wore the same blue sunglasses

and listened to yoünger brother

and got excited.

We stopped by at a flower shop

and I picked up a beautiful bouquet

for my father

but the cemetery was closed

and we couldn’t enter.

We reached berdawni

it was such a beautiful sunny day 

we ordered mezza

arguile

and arak

like a real lebanese couple. 

We ate till we were full

and left to buy ice cream

for my grandma.

She was sitting by her balcony

alone

sad

she saw us

she was so happy

she cried

I’m happy we made her happy

I love her so much

I wouldn’t want anyone to stop my love for her

not even herself. 

We ate icecream and drank coffee

and had an amazing time with teta. 

When we left, she barely could walk but insisted on walking us to the door

I wish I can see her more often

I will try

she deserves to be happy.

We then took off to mtein, 

beautiful mtein, 

stopped at a spot

where I could leave my flowers

and where we can climb rocks

and take pictures

with a beautiful view in front of us.

We continued our journey to my house, and enjoyed a sunset and a good time with my family

It was an amazing day

we drank rum and ate cake

and had fun talking on our way back to the city. 

I don’t feel like working

I just want to enjoy the memories

of today. 

Fearless

In total darkness

where the night crawls

and bugs whisper

at any moment

we could crash

but we didn’t

The music was nice

The view was beautiful

and we drove far away

hand in hand

crossing distances

speed limits

and bumps

as we laugh

happy

we landed where the sun rose

we watched the light blue sky

together

on the roof of your car.

We saw pale and dark purple mountains

reveal forest green trees

as the earth wakes up

to the bright yellow and pink

light of day.