Being with someone else
will only keep you on my mind.
I will always compare,
with feelings of dispair,
Inside my head
there’s a place u belong
inside my heart
there are places that are shut.
I live happily and care free
and at night, only at night
the ghost of you
comes along
and haunts my dreams
very happily.
My mind is trying to ease my pain
by refabricating a beautiful image
of the things we couldn’t be.
Today I got a call from someone we both knew
someone who is upset with you,
and it reminded me of how stressful you are
and i hate myself
for all the feelings I have
for you
despite all the pain I no longer go through.
Jude 