How stupid was I
to hope for love
and happiness
in the same place I lost it
the place that stirred up
my ugliest feelings
and scariest faces.
I let myself become a monster
while you watched me
passively
attack you with words
insults
even claws
and the worst part is
I am not even scared
of the monster I have become.
I unleashed my inner beast
and let you see
how ugly I am
it’s a shame
you never really got the best of me
yet
I’m not even regretful
for the ugliness you tasted.
I wanted you to hate me
so that it’s easier for me
to let you go.