Monster

How stupid was I

to hope for love

and happiness

in the same place I lost it

the place that stirred up

my ugliest feelings

and scariest faces. 

I let myself become a monster

while you watched me

passively

attack you with words

insults

even claws

and the worst part is

I am not even scared 

of the monster I have become. 

I unleashed my inner beast

and let you see 

how ugly I am

it’s a shame 

you never really got the best of me

yet 

I’m not even regretful

for the ugliness you tasted. 

I wanted you to hate me 

so that it’s easier for me

to let you go.